you are the midnight doughboy
penetration by the flagpole
your flamboyant jacket fizzles
numskulls nuzzle in tough moods
To the bold and righteous girl who attempted to foil my relationship. There were days I felt unbalanced and thrown off by your presence. I could feel your energy looming over me almost daily. Your determination to derail my life has illuminated me and had me hostage at one point.
On a dreary day I felt choked and wrung up like a dirty dish towel.
On more empowering days I felt I could fling you out of my mind and take what lessons you come to bring; swallow the information and toss you back into vortex you came in on. Your devotion to being an annoyance to the human race is exemplary! I can sincerely feel your disturbing ego driven selfishness though the network of social media channels I constantly checked. Your poetry was particularly pitiful as I see you wanting to have some kind of style but every piece always falling flat.
Yes, it's obvious you are a product of privilege as your vocabulary is grandiose. But, you have no rhythm or life experience I can decode that in your writing. You need to be knocked down by a punch as powerful as Muhammad Ali's left hook. So you can see the damage you have done and experience humility. Do not choose a fight you are not prepared for, as Ive trained my whole life for this battle. I'm fast, agile and have superior endurance. I was not born of privilege, I had to fight for what I have. I understand now why Ive never been handed a silver spoon, it was training all along. Training to beat and deflect the attitudes of individuals like yourself. To experience freedom from hate, ill intentions and judgement.
It all makes sense now, I'm no longer going to tolerate others to break me down I'm strong and ready.
I'm a mother, a giver, a gladiator, a charismatic businesswoman, a creature of massive creativity, a thirsty mind and have a destiny for greatness.
What is ecstasy? Lately I've come to experience it in the little things. In-between the crevices, things less bold, forgotten trash, wadded up materials begrudgingly toss to the wind and in clumsy gestures. Innocent mistakes, can be ecstasy. The thrill of realizing you have forgotten past pain is pure ecstasy. The things that once got under your skin and caused mournful nights have all vanished and disappeared. That is what I call ecstasy! Not allowing others to dictate how you live, breathe and love is ecstasy .
There was an astronaut long ago who mastered her intellect. Reached the highest goal and manifested her dreams. She ended up in prison for murder because she allowed another to sidetrack her desires. What is the answer for healthy boundaries and how do you defeat other’s evil intentions? I found it’s simple, don’t harm others and if someone has ill intentions towards you just walk away. Turn around and always radiate like the sun. Your brightness so illuminating that you will attract the right situations. Be the sun. Be yourself. Gravity will do the rest!